Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The UGLY Truth

It was that time again, she was standing in the lab, doing the same practicals as she did last year..stirring the test tube...effervescence bubbles oozing out...
Gazing at them..took her back in time, when she was 16, fresh out of school, a carefree, happy-go-lucky, like any other ordinary girl.

Little did she knew about what awaits her, how mean this world is.It was her first day of college, she was away from parents, she was bit scared but then it was a new beginning, she had the most bright smile on her face.That place didn't make her happy, it wasn't as welcoming as she had thought,but her hopes didn't die..she thought to herself,"It's just the first day".Following days were not friendly either, she was making up her mind slowly that these three years, won't be easy. But miraculously things changed, her classmates were now nice to her, teachers were kind too. She was now relaxed, she thought to herself, "I am so naive, after all we are all new here"

Now days were less stressful for her. She was back being herself. She had no clue, what awaits her, what was the motive of those people being nice to her.

One day, a teacher of hers called her in his cabin,she had asked for a book which was just available for staff members. She went in there with a smile, and when she came out the world had changed for her. She was not the same person any more, the world wasn't the same for her.

A tear rolled down her cheek, she came back in present,realized where she was standing. She finished her practical and went back home.

She sat in a corner, the memory of that day was still fresh in her mind, it haunted her every now and then.For the world, she was confident,unperturbed, but inside, she was shattered.

She had never expected what happened to her in that room, she couldn't believe what she heard her teacher saying. She was threatened never to open her mouth, she was too overwhelmed to react to anything that time.

She went back home for holidays, she was too scared and embarrassed to tell her parents about it. When she refused to join college again, her father guessed something was wrong. He tried asking, but she could never gather the strength to tell him everything.
He took her back to college, talked to authorities, they assured her she will be fine and the issue would be taken care of, he assured her, that she'll be fine here, everything is okay now.She was still scared, but she had faith in her father.

Three years passed, they weren't the best, but she was glad that its over. She can start it all afresh.

July 18, just the day she got through the college she wanted to join for her post grad, her graduation result came.It was the shock of her life.She wasn't given marks in her practicals, she FAILED.

She fainted the moment she saw this, she was an above average student all her life, she had never even reappeared for a re-test in class. This was huge, and more so because of the hostile three years she had. Now, nothing could have been done to rectify it. She had to repeat the whole year.Her parents supported her all through this, but the faith in her had died.

She just stood for what was right, she stood for her principles, sleeping with someone to take up a step ahead in life wasn't her. She took a stand,and she was crushed. That one year,taught her the meaning of Harper Lee's statement,"People are people where ever you put them". Nobody was same to her, when she used to worry about her future, people though of her being selfish, when she cried, people told her she herself doesn't want to be happy nor can she someone else happy.

She had maintained her composure entire year, but she was human after all, she had the right to cry when she was sad, she had the right to be afraid of the unknown.

She was hurt, the result did leave a scar on her academic qualification, but the consequences she went through, left a scar on her heart, that would never heal. People whom she counted on, whom she had thought would be friends for life, mocked her by calling her "Dukhi Atma". She wasn't a sad soul, she was just hurt.The guy she loved, despite of knowing her inside out, wasn't patient with her too.People told her she should have handled that situation, and when she asked them HOW, they had no answer.They complained that she wasn't the same anymore, she nodded along, because now she couldn't be the same.They accused her she didn't handle it well, she had nothing to say, but she thought to herself, i survived, i never gave hope, i believed things would change soon.She was sure, she'll get her happy ending.

And one day,when she had enough of them,she left them all. She was tired of people judging her, so one day she gave everybody a piece of her mind. And as she had expected, everybody left. But she had no regrets. All her life, she had learnt to stand up for yourself, and she did.She was hurt when everybody turned their back towards her, but she thought to herself, "this is the real world".You either lose your conscience, else, good luck surviving.

Only one complaint she had from the world, Why wasn't she WARNED.


  1. GOD.. Why was she not warned indeed WHY.. this world is a bad place VERY bad place so true .. we all have our own little experiences in life .. I had mine when i was in school that changed me to what i am now .. had i been warned or helped i might have been a different person .. the one that is hidden deep inside ..

    I hope this is FICTION ..

    I know how it feels thankfully i had friends around me who helped me ..

    LIFE is indeed very harsh ...
    very good write up God bless


  2. i hope this is a has lot of surprises..jus tat we got to learn a lot from al those...

  3. Bikramjit: Thank you :)
    Probably we need those little experiences, they just should be less hard, a flashforward would be more than enough.
    Worse part is this isn't fiction.

  4. Anoop: Sadly enough, this is real.
    Yeah, a lesson is all that is left.

    Love & Care

  5. A beautiful story. She stood for what she considered right, that is what matters. Selfish? So is the world, so let it be, I'd say, screw the world when all it cares about is screwing you inside out.
    Why wasn't she warned,"Welcome to the real world now".

    Nice work.

    Blasphemous Aesthete

  6. Dear Bhargavi,

    I almost had tears in my eyes when I read this post - it has that impact. Many of us can relate to it...even though it would be tough to admit. Your posts take me through an emotional tour that makes me stop and think...beautiful piece - and every fiction has a piece of reality in it... this is what makes it beautiful. Keep Writing, I love to read what you write :)

  7. Mystic but lovely and touching. Love reading your posts. Keep Blogging.

  8. Blasphemous Aesthete: Thank You :)
    Guess, we are bluffed by fancy poems and songs describing the "oh-so-beautiful" world :)

  9. Mystical Skeptical Me: Thank you so very much. :)

  10. Rachit: Thank You :)
    Appreciation means alot :)



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